FATE? or JODOH? LOVE? OH NO~

salam and hey....

today i'm talking something that still a sensitive issue about me... JODOH~ I'm kind of a little bit jealous with some of my friends and junior who kinda already get a BF or GF... I am really happy for them.. but i kinda thinking.. when can i found my soul mate....

Sometimes, u feel want to get married, have a family life.. having kids... spending the rest of your life with someone that u love with all of your heart.. someone that is not a family and other than Allah and Rasululllah... Someone that you can express everything to him.. that can be for you when in sickness and health.. Someone that can accept you the way you are... But, that is a dream.. I think still unseen and unthinkable.. It is hard..

Sometime, when thinking about it, my self esteem just went down the hilll.... I mean it really low... through the canyon also... But, I think i got to accept that i never found my JODOH yet.. or in other words... my SOUL MATE... I think i have accepted it... This crazy mind of mine makes me think that topic back again and again...

I am a sensitive person... That is one of my weaknesses that I am not proud of and trying to overcome it.. huhu... But, everytime i go back home..  there is that one aunty... always talking to me that how her daughter and son are beautiful and great... got a lot of hand in marriage... I am happy for her sons and daughters... I not really into it.. BUT.... if she talked about the same thing over and over again to my only face... Don't you think that is a little bit weird??

Well, come to think of it...  When i think about this issue... I always taught that Allah knew what is best for me... He loves me and I love Him with the bottom of my heart.. He knew it is still not the right time for me to meet the 'guy' yet... and I know I am not ready for the responsibility for having a family yet... Hehe...

So, to all ladies out there... If you think just like me, feeling down cause not finding a guy yet.. Dun think about it.. That means Allah just save a guy that is the most perfect for you.... I guarantee it... If you feel uncertain about the guy you were dating with... Go to Allah.. He always knew what is best for you... Remember Him and if you try hard enough to find the answer... He will always give answer for you... =)