I am not quite sure when is the last time I publish my post here in this blog but I am sure it is years ago.. Not many things that I want to say but right now I am on my last year in University of Malaya as an undergraduate student... On this incoming Monday, I will be on my practical in a secondary school at Subang, Selangor. Got a mixed feelings about it... Scared, excited, indifferent, fun, terrified, nervous, blank and etc.. hahaha... but I will know the feeling will come when the time is come. So, while writing this post, my feeling is calm.. Considering that I am going to end my degree studies soon and will be on convocation at October 2014, if it in God's will, I will have another decision to make on my next path in my life...
A little throwback over here about my decision making.. first is after my secondary school.. i have to choose between UIA english foundation and matrics with life science... which both choice is hard to make and my heart is slightly on the UIA but I choose matrics cause at that time i was following my parents a.k.a me mum where she thought that better to take in science and if you got english course at UM then you can take the course there... I also got an offer on primary school teacher in english.. I have to decline due to my inability to cope and teach and have enough patience to interact with primary school students at that time... So, after one year in matriculation, there is another decision that I have to make which is the hardest choice so far...
One is a medical doctor course in an unknown university which to say not quite famous and I dont want to wrote the university name here while a science education course at UM... Both have good pros and cons and for me are quite balanced.. one side you got a medical course which is good and high in terms of social standings in the Malaysian world.. What do you have to say~ when you talk to all aunties and uncles and you say you are taking medicine, they would totally say "Wow!!! Doctor~ Good good.. Nanti gaji banyak bagus eyh dapat jadi doktor nanti" That is typical and normal in certain society which I will not tell in here. but the bad side is that is is not from a known university or which the university is new and unreliable in local view but still the course is in MQA qualifications which is enough to get a JOB here...
On one side is that a science teacher which in specific biology teacher or chemistry teacher in the no.1 university in Malaysia which is University of Malaya which I have chosen. The good side is that you will be learning inside no.1 university in Malaysia and around 100++th university in the world. The downside is that when talking to the aunties again the dialogue is like this..
Auntie : Ika, belajar dekat mana sekarang?
Me : Dekat UM auntie
Auntie : Really?! Good good.. Ambil course apa ika?
Me : Cikgu..
Auntie : oooooo *krik krik situation*
Well, is it really that low when studying to become a teacher.. It is true that I pretty much regretted everyday when I had a hard time in UM of not choosing doctor but still i carry on and reach the final semester which is the practical.. Moral of the story here DO NOT JUDGE PEOPLE BY THEIR OCCUPATION!!!!
After reaching the final semester, I have realize that Alhamdulillah that I pick this course instead of other course which could be much worse than I am facing in UM. I learn to love to be a teacher and I learn to love to teach and giving information to my future students. I am excited to be a teacher. Even though I do not have much experience, I know by teaching, it will teach me how to be mature and not a child any longer. I am anticipating for my years to come as a teacher...
The current dilemma now is that continue to WORK or continue to STUDY? Ahah... Still, thinking and thinking.. Like my mother said just now and sometimes I quote me self
"When the time comes you will now the answer, just go with the flow"
Yeah... I just wait for the time for it to come.. =)
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